As the Petal Falls

I am not alone, I am alone, I am not alone, I am alone; as I peel the petals of a rose I fear to come to the last of it. Things are changing, for the better or worse? Yet to find out.

The class gathering was subtly happy. There were moments of anguish and tears, for what I have lost and what I have gained. It was amazing to get back in track with Sharvena and Mahes. It was painfully hurting to see the distance between Nair and me. I admit that I portrayed myself to be strong and care-free about what has happened between us. But I stare with despair when you’re not looking. I miss you terribly.

Saturday night; the most meaningful night of my life, drunken words are sober thoughts but what I heard came right from the heart. We had a good drink and a few good laughs. What mattered most were your words that night. I am sorry to say, I cried with you and wiped it away when you looked upon me. I told you my deepest secrets and I told you how much you meant to me. Instead of words as form of reply, I saw your tears and that meant the world to me. I love you so much my friend, I really do. More than anyone, anything and even myself. Thank you for your morning messages, they light up my day. Thank you for your smiles and calls, they light up life. You will be always be the meaning to my life.

Sunday night; it was full of Pravin. I had loads of fun just staring at you. I was myself again when we laughed together. I found the lost me, when I was with you. Yet, another goodbye. I need you. I need you like before. I really love you.